Mean Girls Vs. Cinderella

Yes, the title are two of my favorite movies if there's a comfort food this is similar to comfort movie the third one is "Bridesmaid" just to put it out there, I can never be gayer having three of my top movies as chick-flick #lol
But in all seriousness, the title says Mean Girls Vs. Cinderella, I think women/transwomen, in general, can either be one of these, though I'm more inclined to Cinderella - yeah I know it's so common for a trans to choose the heroine but I'm serious women are mean to me specially in my age range, the older women are nice to me mostly but girls, younger girls, they hate me, I don't know why?
There's this one scenario where I park outside of the discount outlet and this girl is looking at me from inside her car, I smile on her and she looks away like she kind of snub me.  But I give her the benefit of the doubt she probably hates her day knowing that she's in the discount outlet rather than in Nordstrom.
Oh in one occasion in the grocery store, one woman literally block me from entering the store and I have to get away from her way or she will literally run me over by her cart. Again I gave her the benefit of the doubt, she must be having a bad day and it's her chocolate run.
One more, laundry day where the lazy me have to pile up my dirty clothes before I do the wash, so I'm carrying these two two loads  going to the laundry room, this girl already see me from the window coming, if it's me I would immediately open the door cause that's the humane thing to do, no she didn't open the door or help me when I drop the clothes entering the laundry room.  Doing the wash I try to be friendly and have a short conversation like it's hot today with a smile and she just nod her head and look away.  No benefit of the doubt this time she's just mean.

In psychology, they studied the being mean are related to self-esteem, the lower once self-esteem the meaner they view the world.  It's like their self-worth is being challenged by the world around them, meaning an individual like me or even a common individual - threatened a part of their personality.
So all in all this psychological explanation just vague an already vague situation, so I probably just leave it to the idea that I'm thankful I see the world better than these girls, and that one day my prince will come #LOL

Scouts Guide To TS Apocalypse

Well to our sensitive readers APOCALYPSE is just for #lol factor - to somewhat refer to the book and movie, don't think too much of it, live life ;)

Ok this post if for you SCOUTS out there who supports CL (craigslist) or BP (back page) it's always good to be informed and be safe, so read away.

Did you know that one in every five posts on CL & PB is fake or just marketing strategies?  I remember clients I service who's an avid follower of CL & PB go by the ideologies - " its an education... " - " trial and error... " - " you will never know unless you try... " positive people are they huh...  But its all true especially the later, I guess these guys became an avid follower of CL & PB because they tried and have a very pleasant experience to do it again.
And that's the reason I'm writing this post to somewhat help you or warn you of CL & PB post.


PHOTO TEST
If the post is too good to be true it's mostly too good to be fake.
Like if you see a goddess or celebrity like photo that looks like taken by fame photographer Ann Lebowitz.  Its probably FAKE and you will either see GOLLUM in person to take away all your precious or the clown in the IT movie to scare you away.

READ BETWEEN THE LINE
If the post promises too much and too encouraging.
You know that promises are meant to be broken and advertisement are half true, so expect those flowery ads to be fake or either leave you disappointed.

DON'T ASK DON'T TELL
Or make it the other way around.
Asking questions are free and no charge so ask away.  If the person posting does the " don't ask don't tell " or too bitchy to answer your inquiries, that's another warning sign - she's a bitch and she will give you a bitch of a service, so don't pursue it, it will only result to a bad experience.

ONE DAY MILLIONAIRE
First your not a MILLIONAIRE and if you are props to you.
Never bring too much money if your meeting for the first time, I would suggest the arranged donation amount and an extra tip.  Leave your wallet and all the expensive valuable stuff in your car, bring your ID though, for special reasons, everyone should have their ID with them, right?

SHARING IS CARING
Did you know that if someone did a good service, that person who received it will keep it to himself, but if that person get a shitty service he will tell it to 10 or more people?
This marketing scenario could also be applied to CL & PB services, it's always good to help each other.  If you hate or love the service, make a fake account and comment away if she has a website affiliation.  It's always good to have each other's back since we live in one TS adoration fantasy world.  And you guys should read away what other's think of her and her offered service, its either gonna warn you or help you.

In conclusion - " its an education... " - " trial and error... " - " you will never know unless you try... " - yes those again.

RENO my RENO

P.S. It's a long read, sorry ;)

I remember when I moved here in the US three years ago I have this fire in me that I can do anything, it's always been a dream of mine to make it here and I will do anything to stay.  Apparently, that fire was put out by two words CULTURE SHOCK - everything was so fast here that I cant keep up and saw a world sheltered by one person, he is my rock and my world, I cant live without him.  And you know what happens when you build a stone of rock to create a mountain of love, it was bound to crumble - until it does.

RENO was never an option, I thought New York (cause you know I'm a fan of SEX AND THE CITY) or Hollywood (cause I can act or do porn LOL I'm kidding) or Las Vegas (yes I'm that predictable with my options).  But never Reno, the only reason I choose Reno is that I have a friend here and I don't have friends anywhere.  And yes I'm antisocial - read above I build a rock remember?
I actually thought of another option, go back home.  Which isn't ideal since I work hard to make it here, so I decided to face life and my dream.  It's not an easy road, I never been that mature at twenty-four and never live alone.  I try doing real jobs but it demanded so much of what I could give, I say deprived me of food but not sleep, also I'm a none smoker so my air has to be for none smoker as well and my body is a temple so you can make it work hard but not too much cause again its a temple LOL.  Ok, I know I kinda sound like a whiner but I know my limits and life's too short to do things you don't want to do.
Then I remember one Las Vegas trip with my ex-friend in my first year here in the US.  He advertises for a MASSAGE and invites MEN in her hotel room, at first I was confused!  First, would someone buy it she is a TS and back home TS is never a popular choice and Second, as I was waiting in the lobby I saw men come in and out of her hotel room in less than 15  minutes, my ex-friend must have been really fast with her hands LOL.  Ok, I'm just being coy I know what happening haha.
On the time that I have no stable job and my roommate cant pay her share of rent, I decided on doing the same, but make it MORE PERSONAL.  First, I hate the idea of meeting another person and not knowing him as a person, I believe in chances and the chance that you answer the ad and came, is a chance to be social and know you.  Second, I know the donation you share doesn't fall on trees but from labor so I want to make it worth - if it's a 30-minute session or 60 minutes there will be a timer, to make sure its time and donation well spent.  And Third, I will do my very best to give a good Body Rub cause This Is What You Came For (Rihanna singing in the background).  So, in general, it's what you call a service with a heart, but would anyone buy it?

Fast forward to today a year and three months later, I'm writing this goodbye to Reno - indeed somebody buys what I'm offering and I'm happy to say that I have regulars that complete my rent every month and newbies that help me save up for the rainy days.  Indeed, personal kindness, a heart in what you do and trying your best goes a long way - miles and miles.
But good things must come to an end and moving-on is necessary, a change is always a good thing, you live and you will learn at every new fold of life. I like to thank this smallest little city of RENO for accepting me and helping me find my wings, the fire that put out lit back because of you.  I learn my strength that I can do it on my own, I can be independent and fend for myself and mature enough to own my life.  It's funny how something you didn't expect became a part of you.  Reno will always be a part of me and I'm proud to say I live and fell in love to this city.

See you on my twenty-six birthday in January my RENO and check out this blog once in a while, I'll be traveling later on when I get settled I might be in your town ;)

And read on for more...

The Best Of Both Worlds

Ok guys if you're reading this and you think it's for you, just check on my HOT picture above and look away, haha conceited much.

In a TRANSGENDER life, there are two worlds that both related to their life experiences, one that is a SAD life that mostly represents the transgender community, and the other the HAPPY life that you are lucky if you encounter one.  Being a transgender is like going into a trauma over and over again - there's the CONFUSION (what am i? why do i like him? would the world accept me? / or would my family accept me?) - there's ACCEPTANCE (i am what i am? take me or leave me?) - COURAGE (cause lets face it the world is not that all accepting, factor religion and discrimination) - LOVE (love thy self first and foremost).  With all this, a steady foundation is needed, and starting from CONFUSION a transgender should get her core strength from her family.  Unfortunately, not all family is accepting of their child being different, there are two sides in this situation, one is BELIEF (factor religion again and discrimination) and CARE (a care that your own child will be facing a difficult life and you're not there always to shield them from pain).  This core foundation will identifies a transgender which of both worlds she will belong to.  And then the story goes if she will succeed in ACCEPTANCE, COURAGE, and LOVE.

Now let's talk about the focus of this post, you guys who love TRANSGENDER.  Out from battlefield of life, some guys will accept and form a relationship with a transgender, cause we offer no one else does, the best of both worlds (cocks and all wink wink).  By being in a relationship with a transgender, you also get to experience our battle scars whether it's SAD or HAPPY, that's the consequences you have to pay to experience both worlds, sorry!  But then again life isn't always about one world (HAPPY), its so better if you experience both...  As they say, those who experience more of life's hardship has more love to spare.  And, once you make it with a transgender RELATIONSHIP you can make it to any RELATIONSHIP (like NEW YORK huh lol) - cause let's face it, it's a challenge to be with us... wink wink...

Correlation Coefficient

" All things in this world are related or somewhat related to something... "

Incident report file second week of August last month, report obtain within the two day period, the incident occurs approximately 5 to 8 hours of span within each other, count of four incident/interaction with different individuals for case study purposes...

Case 01
At approximately 12 noon a client inquire about the Body Rub service and the deal was set and the client came at approximately 2 pm kinda late for his 1 pm appointment but this isn't jury duty so it's OK.  The client was an INDIAN Navajo decent, very nice and a real gentleman, he enjoys the service and promises to come back next time.

Case 02
At approximately 4 pm an inquiry again came in, settled for a 4:30 pm appointment he was not late but came earlier than expected, so I have to make him wait till I'm ready, I'm not a DIVA i promise.  Another Body Rub and some cheerful conversation on the side, I found out that the guy was half INDIAN Navajo decent and half white.  If you notice on CASE 01 the subject is INDIAN keep that in mind.  I also found out that he is dating an AUSTRALIAN girl who's he been dating long distance for a year now.

CASE 03
At approximately 8 pm a client inquires about the service, settled for 8:30 pm apparently this is my lucky day 3 clients in one day, or so I thought (tan tan thats my scary music lol) ???  The guy came in and have the Body Rub, a little get to know each other and I found out that he is AUSTRALIAN with a very strong accent.  If you notice in CASE 02 that the guy has a long distance GF which is also AUSTRALIAN.  I also found out that this guy is the perfect ASSHOLE like he called me mean all the time cause I won't do what he wants.  And he called me a bitch before leaving cause again I won't give in to his indecent request.

CASE 04
Early morning the next day, a client called want to schedule an appointment, I woke up out of the regular time cause rent is due in two days.  He came put the donation on the table and request a 60 minutes Body Rub, and has so many requests, if it isn't the morning and I needed a good exercise I would have complained cause he is asking too much for a small petite Asian girl like me, I can only put a certain amount of pressure with my body size, plus I'm on a diet so I'm a little weak.  After the session, he immediately left claiming he forgot something in his car and he will come back next time for another session.  When I'm about to see the money, it was $17 in the combination of $5 and $1.

If you notice in CASE 03 the client is sort of an ASSHOLE cause even if he is demanding and indecent he still gave the right DONATION, and our CASE 04 client is in fact a real ASSHOLE.

( P.S. This case study doesn't mirror my client list, I am blessed that CLIENT 03 and 04 are on a very rare occasion, I mostly get the nicest most gentleman clients, for that, I am always grateful. )

Only In The Dreams

reality can be blinding

that's why you look for that disguise

the sun will keep on shining

and the night will clothe that light

life goes on with happiness and pain

still, you deserve to find that escape

and that's only in the dreams

i can be whoever i want to be

i can let happiness be the only feeling

or choose a pill and never get addicted

satisfaction is a reality

bliss is not forbidden

only in this dream, you can be you

i can be me

love is equal and right all the time

winning is not an option

so come around relax and own this world

do what makes you happy

and when you wake up

just realize that you can come back again

and dream some more

Game Of Thrones - CRAIGSLIST STYLE

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CRAIGSLIST 

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and that's the opening credits for this post #lol

Let me start off by saying that I never once flagged anyone in CRAIGSLIST - I think it's rude and disrespectful not only to someone's effort to post but also to their needs.  But that was BEFORE -  since this bitches keeps flagging my one post again ONE POST every other day again EVERY OTHER DAY, I might as well join the GAME.

DIRECTIONS - this is how the GAME plays, just like my super favorite show #gameofthrones, it's simple - knock down your competition by flagging them till the system turn their post down and you gain all the attention of WESTEROS men by getting all the sex you want and the money from the IRON BANK if your a provider.  BTW were only tackling the PERSONAL section of CRAIGSLIST so don't read ahead if you're selling or doing other things in CRAIGSLIST, and if you're not familiar with GAME OF THRONES go back and to the rock, you're living in #LOL the practically missing half of your life.

RULES - there are no f-king rules, you can post 20 times or more if you want.  That actually kinda irritates me, like if your one post can't get any why do you think 19 more will do, it just makes you look desperate.  Like even with my one post again ONE POST every other day again EVERY OTHER DAY, I still get a hit, so girls just play it right and again don't be desperate, guys don't dig that, right guys?

POINTERS to win the game - click on the PROHIBITED box on top of the post and do it as much as you can until you vanish your competitions post.  This will benefit you by killing your competition who is mainly hotter than you or by simply removing the post on top of you cause you're a famewhore.  Which is generally cruel but then again we live in a world where a person like me who doesn't flag anyone became a victim of it repeatedly.

THE WINNER TAKES IT ALL? - yes indeed just like in the show the winner gets to sit on the iron throne until other people who want to sit on it stab you with one of the swords in it.  Or in CRAIGSLIST version, until you learn how to flag like these other bitches forces you to do.

But in all seriousness, you girls who keep flagging my post please think about this, your already in the dark world of sex, lies and deuce (the latter is a new show that might not get a second season), why not put a little class and kindness with it, play it fair, the men of Westeros know what they want so you don't need to be cruel and evil to get their attention.  And a little shower will also help #LOL.

So ok as of writing this I will be the Daenerys Targaryen of CRAIGSLIST and I will break the wheel, I will not flag anyone anymore on CRAIGLIST and if ever they flag me which is expected, I will be all kind and class to repost my ad...

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CRAIGSLIST 

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