Goodbye MASSAGE REPUBLIC

Another one bites the dust ( crying )

TRIAL & ERROR - PART I

Since I moved to California where most TRANS are and the industry ( you know what I mean, right? ) I gather some stories that I might as well share to you guys who support this dying industry.  We will lead this post with a warning, this industry is a TRIAL & ERROR ( as the title says )

ARTICLE 01 -  I'M NOT INTERESTED, SO HIT THE ROAD JACK

One day Jack decided to negotiate with a new girl in town ( or she might be old and you just found her ) he came in the room and the girl didn't smile, she never bothers to know your name or have a little getting to know each other moment - and what occurred happened to be a task - and YES it is, on her part - your part is supposed to figure it out and you failed, miserably.  But then again this is the business of TRIAL and ERROR so you live and learn, the lesson here never hire her again and move on to another provider, there's so many of them here in California.

ARTICLE 02 - HOTLINE BLING

One day DRAKE negotiates for a one-hour BODYRUB - Nicky ( not her real name its NICK actually ) take the roses and the session begins.  Nicky a business girl by heart, a rotten person in real life - treat this shit she's doing is not important nor you so she keeps texting the whole session, might be the next client or boo bugging - so DRAKE is not getting what he paid for.  As I mention Nicky a businesswoman decided to move the hands of time ( literally ) she reaches on the happy ending button, you sneeze you lose right? and DRAKE kind of sneeze but down there and the session is over - 8 minutes that's a record for DRAKE.

ARTICLE 03 - IM TOO SEXY - PAY ME MORE

Nowadays everybody has MONEY or maybe it's just the facade, but since CRAIGSLIST / BACKPAGE / ADLIST21 got shut down all this fancy website came in and ask for $300 to $600 monthly membership fee to post, and these desperate girls are biting it and raising their fee for to up to $1000 for an hour session -  which I think is unfair for you guys who are dumb enough or horny enough to take the bait, DONT - its suppose to be the industry of having fun and relaxation, socializing and consensual friendship... ( I hope you get the dots lol ) - I know its the money game but it should still be fun and social - and partly moral if not mostly...

We the Animal

An animal that's what you call us

And we know who we are

Running wild and won't be kept in the closet

Or ruled by rules, we know our right

Not to hurt others and share respect

See us and hear us roar

Call us names, we know who we are

Have us doubt ourselves that keep us stronger

Overcome pain and suffering were a survivor

Come on you know we're better than that

Keep it coming we won't get beaten

Go and say what you want

Or do anything to make us feel less

Put us to a test and we will win

I know who I am

Same question for you, do you know who you are?

Giving you time to see the beauty

And the happiness we have and well share

You and I are the same animals, but you choose to be a BETRAYER

The WANT, The NEED, and The DEAD INSIDE

I started off in this industry two years ago with an idea to fill up my deflated ego living as a boy in a highly religious country where adoration for someone like me never happen ( cry cry nobody said I'm pretty ) - so I venture in this industry to make me feel pretty and hot, yes all those compliments that I'm gorgeous was never enough you keep them coming, so the money was never an issue, tip or don't tip your compliments keep me going like an energizer bunny. ( ps. it's natural for trans to feed on their ego cause they have been deprived of it all their life if you meet or know a trans - a narcissistic quality is somewhat a second nature #LOL )

Since I move in California things changes, I realize lately that I been doing my usual WANT to do BODYRUB to a NEED to do BODYRUB.  For a time being its OK and I'm not realizing the difference between the two, but lately, as I desperately want to see more client and needing more money ( for rent or mainly to live ) I'm realizing that the compliments are not having any impact, and somewhat see my self getting tired/bored of what I do.  Like in the past I want to do BodyRub cause I enjoy and love what I'm doing, now its I need to do BodyRub cause I need to pay bills and make money.  Which is not me cause if you read my blog, you would read enthusiasm and love of what I'm doing, now there comes a point where I don't even want to do BodyRub and those bills are the only reason I'm still doing this.  And I hate being a WHORE ( by definition of whore is doing the job you hate and getting paid for it ) before I'm proud to say I'm not a whore, and now I am a legitimate whore - and most whores are dead inside ( OMG I'm a cliche - a WHORE who is dead inside )

It's a running joke in the industry that we are dead inside, am I dead inside now and the need for money kills the enjoyment I had of doing BodyRubs?  The answer is NO - I think there's still hope, as the NEW YEAR is coming, it's timely to have a NEW YEAR's resolution, the next year 2019 I would have to fix my finances - I will shift my want and need to my addiction to spending, do I need a new victoria secret bra or just want it cause I look good on it #HAHA ( come to think of it I don't wear a bra often so its useless to even own one )  And I think I need to go back on having a goal, and rewards TRIP that encourages me to do my best, and most importantly go back to WANT to see clients and not NEED to cause you guys ( the good and bad of you ) whether you like it or not will always be a part of me.

So don't worry OLIVIA is not dead inside, she's resuscitated and preparing for a comeback next year 2019 so you have to see her when she's on your area ( even though she's mostly not available LOL )

Where my Boys at ( SAN JOSE, CA )

Call it peer pressure or the rumor mill that SAN JOSE has the money so  I decided to try my luck in the valley of the silicon ( or the other way around ).  It must be that I book this trip on holiday or the not so typical service I offer that for the second time I failed or the boys ( client ) failed me.  Remember that just last month SACRAMENTO breaks my heart and I'm still healing and now here I am in SAN JOSE bringing on the heartbreak.

Though on my last day which is today MONDAY, I actually have plenty of inquiries and committed client I just don't have the time, so I believe there is hope, I just have to book it on weekdays and never on a holiday.  So it's not that bad, I'll definitely come back but most probably next year.

Calling all the BRAVE men

where you at, where you at - surely not in MOTEL 6 cause you cancel on me not once but four times ( crying emoji )

ok, when I book this recent trip in Pleasanton I was thinking about the money I will save booking MOTEL 6, I didn't think of the money I will lose which I should have considered.  but I'm bad at Math so I think the odds are against me, to begin with.

so apparently MOTEL 6 has a reputation of being the place that busts drugs and held sting operation for prostitution, there I thought these only happen in the boondocks or in reality TV - remember that guy who entered a very secluded house which is an obvious sign of a sting operation, that was dumb right but he still goes LOL.  so these guys ( 4 cancellations) that wanted a BodyRub decided to drive back and text me they won't go to MOTEL 6 because of that rumors.  Tittle-tattles which a few BRAVE MEN ( the title implies ) has to overcome and see me in spite of it all, which i'm happy and thankful. the lesson of this experience, RESEARCH - don't book MOTEL 6 if you're doing BodyRub or drugs ( the latter you should never do anywhere actually ) - and there is still BRAVE MEN out there WINK WINK...

SACRAMENTO ( i tried )

Ok i try to widen my horizon ( clientele ) from RENO, PLEASANTON & LAS VEGAS to now SACRAMENTO and sorry ( for me ) it was a bust SACRAMENTO, I only seen a few clients ( enough to pay for the HOTEL excluding the outside expenses - food and transport ) - also the client request is very demanding like a few clients cancel cause I won't do their fantasy - #PS what does SACRAMENTO do to these men #LOL - and the hotels are so bad I think MOTEL 6 is five star there.  I'm really sorry if you love SACRAMENTO or you left your heart there ( get it back please ) but it really was the worst trip I ever had, and for that, I scratch out the plan to go back.

I know I'm really harsh but the trip is really bad, so bad I left on my last night and go home.  Sacramento was once the thriving city of California where industry and urban life was the center of it all, now the armpit of California where you plan your next getaway to another city #LOL - Even the clients that I see born and raised in SACRAMENTO only has bad things to say, some even ask me what make me decide to work there, the only big industry there are blue diamond almonds and the other big company are leaving to another city, so people have no extra money for leisure.

Well like I said I tried, but here's to hoping SACRAMENTO will find its way like when it was established as the capital of California.  I think its more about city planning and good governance, like SAN JOSE who would have thought the known armpit of EAST BAY would now be the jewel of it ( check the housing prices there and see what I mean ).

#PS - speaking of SAN JOSE I might try to go there and see if I can build a clientele there, so if you're in / from SAN JOSE and reading this, check out my dates OK and see you ;)